有人把blog 当成是日记来用，记载着每天的点点滴滴。我记得以前小时候，我有几次心血来潮，也写过日记。写啊写，每天勤劳地写。但，我的三分钟热度一过，我的日记变成周记，周记变成月记，月记变成想起才记。结果，我的日记一会儿就全军覆没了。
所以我只在我有灵感的时候才写blog。这样没有deadline地写，反而写得比较多。如果硬逼自己写，我想不久后，我的blog就会夭折了。
我的blog充其量只是随记，其实它记载更多的是我的想法，心情等。我不是很喜欢把我生活的细节写下来，因为我觉得很闷。
我喜欢的是把我的想法写下来，然后听听大家的意见。
我喜欢的是把我发泄的画post 上去，然后觉得很搞笑。
我喜欢的是分享我觉得很crap的笑话，然后让大家的一天比较愉快。
我喜欢的是胡言乱语，莫名其妙。
我喜欢的是有一天，某出版商看到我的blog，然后赞助我写书。
哈哈，我最喜欢的是作梦。
Me: G is getting married. R u gg to her wedding?
She: Shd be. U going too?
Me: Yup. I’ll reply her tt both of us gg.
She: So fast hor? So many pple getting married year by year
Me: Ya. Soon, everyone is getting married. Haha.
Me: Haha, ya. This year alr attended 3 weddings. Est at end of yr will have attended 5 liao.
She: Yeah. That’s equivalent to 500 bucks
She: Yeah. YS also getting married this year!
She: YS just told me that ZY is already married..
Me: Oh reli? Am i being cynical or wat? It seems that those married r either pretty or rich or both!
She: Haha. I agree! Reality sucks rite?
Thot that our conversation is quite funny.
R we desperate to get married? No.
R we making an interesting, but irresponsible conversation? Yes.
After I changed my msn caption, a lot of friends asked me why say that. So I thought I can clarify here to avoid explaining the same thing again and again.
It was last Saturday when I met up with 3 guys for a drink. After we down a few mugs of beer, we started talking crap.
Fren A said: “U know what? When I’m 30, I will go for a 20 years old girlfriend. You will just know when you look at their arms. 20 years old – still firm and solid, but 30 years old – flabby butterfly arms as they wave good bye.”
I said: “If that is the case, I should go for a 36 years old guy right? 10 years older than me?”
Fren A: “Nooooo. Sadly, a 36 years old man will still go for a 20 years old instead of 26 years old. Haa”
Me thinking: Joking or serious? Urggg….Peodophile.
I dunno, but it set me wondering.
Reli? Does all guys have this thing for young gals deep in their nature? Meaning no demand for me, a 26 years old gal who just got detached? Not that old, but not young either.
Or do I have to go look for some extremes like 66 years old? At least they will regard me as really young, Haa! Anyway, just joking. It’s not going to happen. Not as if I’ll die if i remain single.
Just thinking: Why cant the world be more normal or fairer? Whereby guys can only date or marry gals who are 4 years younger than them? At least, it will ensure that there will be sufficient demand in the makret to take up supply. Whereas, current trend is like demand for women diminishes with age. Sad, but reality of life.
My Fren A might be joking, but I really believed that such guys exist in the world whereby they will keep dating younger and younger girlfriends even as they aged.
Fren A also said that I’m not that young either; I’m at the awkward age. But heck him! If I’m happy, then I must be young. At least I still can go clubbing sometimes, exercising sometimes, blading sometimes and might even contemplate dancing! At least, I can still try out new things and do so much for my life.
So, when I said I’m young, I’M YOUNG!
有的人为了逃避而结婚，有的人为了依赖别人而结婚。有个作者说，女人最好有独立过生活的能力才结婚。因为结婚之后，责任更大，你必须照顾一整个家。所以没有独立生活能力的女人要怎么应付呢?
因为作者的话，我开始思考，我为什么想结婚呢?
1) 因为直觉结婚是我人生中的这段时间必须要经历的事；
2) 因为身边同龄的朋友都一一结婚，所以我不想和别人不同；
3) 因为喜欢和另一个人从零开创幸福未来的感觉；
4) 因为喜欢有个属于自己一点一滴，一手一脚建造的家。
*排名不分先后。
后来，我想了想，确定自己其实还是没有结婚的准备。因为我虽然有独立生活的心理准备，但说到底，我并没有独立生活的经验，所以我不知道我是否真的可以应付。
如果吃腻了外卖的食物或为了省钱，我懂得下厨为自己煮一些好吃的吗?
如果生病了，我懂得照顾自己，如: 煮清淡的粥给自己吃吗?
如果工作太忙碌、太累，我还有精神去打扫房子吗?
如果处在陌生的地方，我会独立地找到目的地，而丝毫不害怕吗?
如果在治安不好的地方，我会懂得避开危险，保护自己吗?
如果在语言不通的国家，我找得到方法和他人沟通吗?
如果遇到挫折，我懂得坚持下去，不轻言放弃吗?
如果被人欺负，我懂得大力反抗，争取自己的权利吗?
如果心情低落，我懂得哄自己开心，好好关怀自己吗?
如果只有我一人，我懂得排解寂寞吗?
以上的，我都没有答案。所以我很想出国工作，在我独自一人生活的时候，为这10个如果找到答案。
溏心风暴终于播到我最喜欢的部分了，就是常在心和Alfred分手后，Alfred 把对她的想念写成一本日记。It will always start with “失去常在心的第xx 天”，每一篇都是对常在心的抱歉和想念，每一篇都是常在心。写的每一句，都让我感动。
虽然是他的错误导致分手，但还是忍不住同情他。因为对常在心的爱，因为他不要常在心哭，所以他忍受着煎熬不接近她。但又因为想念她，所以他会出没在有常在心的地方，远远地看着她。因为他的不忠，所以常在心离开他。但，真的分手后，他却无法忍受没有常在心的日子，因为他真正爱的只有她。所以，他默默地等着常在心原谅他的一天，一等就是三年。
可以为自己等三年的男人，女人多数会感动。因为，在这个即食面的社会，什么都要求高效率，要快。试问有多少人愿意付出那么多的时间和精力来追求一样不知道会不会有结果的事呢? 男人大多会觉得，你不爱我，我就找别人咯，不一定非你不可。所以，痴情的品种才显得难能可贵。
不过，说句老实话，Alfred 的角色那么讨好，除了他的痴情之外，应该还因为他是帅哥律师吧。我就比较喜欢 “得得地”。总是默默地对常在心付出，不计较回报。就连她有男朋友，都要忍痛为她高兴。他是真正的只要你开心，我就开心的例子。
最喜欢的就是，他借钱给常在心而定制的合约。里面的附加条件虽然他说得很苛刻，但其实是很贴心的，如: 不可以眼光光地看着电脑哭，要照顾老人与猫的生活起居等等。
如果Alfred 是抢眼的太阳花，顷刻便会夺走别人的目光，得得地就是陪衬的满天星，不特别引人注意，但却让人很舒服。有他在的时候，你不会特别在意。一旦失去了，便会觉得少了什么似的。
每个女人的身边不一定要有一个Alfred，但最好都有一个得得地。
Joke 1
A supermarket had a sale on boneless chicken breasts, and a woman I
know intended to stock up. At the store, however, she was
disappointed to find only a few skimpy prepackaged portions of the
poultry, so she complained to the butcher. “don’t worry, ya ,” he
said. “I’ll pack some more trays and have them ready for you by the
time you finish shopping.”
Several aisles later, my friend heard the butcher’s voice boom over
the public-address system: “Will the lady who wanted bigger breasts
please meet me at the back of the store.”
Joke 2
This guy and his girlfriend are fighting….she says “I’m breaking up with you.” “Why??” he asks. She says “because you are a pedophile”. He says “Pedophile?????? Hmmmm that’s an awfully big word for a 10 year old.”
Joke 3
An old man was critically ill. Feeling that death was near, he
called his lawyer. “I want to become a lawyer. How much is
it or the express degree you told me about?”
“It’s $50,000,” the lawyer said. “But why? You’ll be dead soon,
why do you want to become a lawyer?”
“That’s my business! Get me the course!”
Four days later, the old man got his law degree. His lawyer
was at his bedside, making sure his bill would be paid.
Suddenly the old man was racked with fits of coughing and
it was clear that this would be the end. Still curious, the
lawyer leaned over and said, “please, before it’s too late,
tell me why you wanted to to get a law degree so badly before
you died?”
In a faint whisper, as he breathed his last, the old man said,
“One less lawyer . . .”
Joke 4
1 Bob Smith, my assistant programmer, can always be found
2 hard at work in his cubicle. Bob works independently, without
3 wasting company time talking to colleagues. Bob never
4 thinks twice about assisting fellow employees, and he always
5 finishes given assignments on time. Often he takes extended
6 measures to complete his work, sometimes skipping coffee
7 breaks. Bob is a dedicated individual who has absolutely no
8 vanity in spite of his high accomplishments and profound
9 knowledge in his field. I firmly believe that Bob can be
10 classed as a high-caliber employee, the type which cannot be
11 dispensed with. Consequently, I duly recommend that Bob be
12 promoted to executive management, and a proposal will be
13 executed as soon as possible.
Addendum:
That idiot was standing over my shoulder while I wrote the report
sent to you earlier today. Kindly re-read only the odd numbered
lines.
上个星期天，又参加了另一场婚宴。每次看到新郎新娘开心的模样，我都会觉得好羡慕。我多么想像他们一样，和那个对的人，踏上人生的另一个旅程。
我喜欢看结婚照和录影，每次看都觉得很感动。因为，新郎新娘的每个眼神交流，都是一个平凡但浪漫的故事。故事结局都是圆满的，都是公主与王子live happily everafter. 可以和自己心爱的人结婚是很幸福的，可以和那个人一起分享往后的人生更是很难能可贵的。
我很喜欢婚礼的气氛，喜欢感染别人幸福的气息。因为婚礼是有魔力的，它让每对新人在那一天都感到满满的幸福和爱。就算日后，两个人的结局是离异，是冷淡，是互相厌恶，在那一天，两个人都一定是最爱对方的。
我读过一本书，它说单身女人就算没有结婚的对象，也要有结婚的准备。那么, 机会来临时，你才不会措手不及。比如: 随时要像新娘般，注意和保护自己的外表，懂得煮一些简单的小菜，会打理家务等等。
这些并不是那种男主外，女主内的封建思想。作者想说的是，这些很平凡的事都凸显了你的独立和照顾自己的能力。能够好好照顾自己的人，才会好好地照顾你婚姻里的每一个人。
这样的人，走进婚姻才会得到真正的幸福。
我希望有个像守护天使般的另一伴。
我还没说出口，他就会知道我心情不好。
我寂寞的时候，他会知道，会出现在我身边陪伴我。
他会像天使一样，默默地在我身边，只在我需要他的时候出现。
他会微笑地看着我开心；包容地面对我的愤怒；贴心地安慰我的哀伤；不忌妒地分享我的快乐。因为我的喜怒哀乐对他来说最重要。
他对话语从来不慷慨，但他一点也不会吝啬他的怀抱。我低落时、伤心时、感慨时、寂寞时、疲倦时、烦恼时、开心时、想念时，他都会紧紧地抱着我，给我温暖。
我的守护天使，他愿意背我一辈子。一旦背起，就不愿再把我放下。
对着我，他永远也不会腻，不会累。
这就是永恒。
很可惜的，我们是人，不是天使。没有男人可以做到一个守护天使所做的。同样的，也没有一个女人可以做男人100%的理想情人。这就是现实。而那永恒，就只存在于虚幻的世界。
Can’t help but being an online stalker again and chanced upon his pictures taken in Mar 08 in a gathering.
Damn! He looks so happy…Why?
心里有个黑洞，在吞噬着我。
我的心一揪一揪的，呼吸困难。
黑洞会慢慢覆盖我的天空，变得沉重。
偶然的消息和过往的记忆一点一点地喂养那黑洞。
它越来越大，压得我快喘不过气。
黑洞里的不忿，时不时出来呐喊: “为什么?”
他的朋友，忌俗也常骂: “你凭什么?”
听说，宇宙的黑洞只会越来越大，不会消失的。但愿，人心的黑洞能够。
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