Advice to friends: This post is all about the part of me that will either bored u all or scared u all. So if you want to stop, here is a convenient point…
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One day, I happened to notice that his msn has changed to xxxx – Leona Lewis – Better in Time. I din really take it to heart, thinking it must be name of some F1 driver and some comments that the person passed.
So, on another day when I went KTV with Tallie, she sang me this song. Only then I realised what is it.
Then, I began to search for the full lyrice and try to get a feel of what the song is about. Below is the full lyrice of the song:
It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who’s there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn’t know
If you didn’t notice you meant everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’m gon’ be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time
I couldn’t turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that’s the path
I’ll be living
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn’t notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’m gon’ be ok
[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time
Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you
Yes I will
Then, I began to 胡思乱想。
Is it that he has regretted? Finally realised that I’m the best? Haha!
Or is he just glad that he has gotten over? That, he can finally go out and get to know other pretty gals? Or maybe he’s glad he has gotten over cos he has found a girlfriend?
Or maybe it’s just very simple – he just like the song. That’s why it’s in his msn. Only bo liao people like me will take it to heart and try all ways and means to interpret.
Or maybe he was referring to a relationship which he entered into shortly after ours, which has ended recently? He’s not referring to us. He has moved on long before & I’m just 自作多情 to assume that he is still holding on to our past when it has been like 1 year plus?
Which line in the song does he feel so much for? Which one does he think it’s applicable to him? Maybe it’s
Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
So at the end, he is able to and has gone off without looking back.
Or is it:
Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
Just like how he thought his decision is the best decision for both of us. And he can be free from the guilt and burden etc.
Or maybe….blah blah blah……
Crazy and paranoid as I am, rest assued that I do not have MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder) or the new renamed- DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder). I just need to have 2 sides of me to balance my rambling thoughts.
You know what? It’s silly, but I keep having this mentality that I just broke up not long ago until one of my friends said this when I told her I just broke up and it was like 1 year ago. She goes like this: “Huh? Just broke up? It was one year ago leh and you called that JUST broke up?” After that, I realised: oh shit, you are so right!
Somehow, time in my world freezed and I have never really let even a second slip pass after that day.
就像时间在我心里静止了。
