“25岁后近生日忧郁症”

最近，作什么都提不起劲。可能因为我的感冒，也可能因为我的生日。总之，我就是懒洋洋的，只想发呆。

Friday

I went to the KTV pub. Din managed to see my new friend. Nevertheless, I was having fun. My sis came to join me for a while, cos she wanted to see what is so fun that I keep going down to that place nearly every weekend.

As usual, I sang, played finger games, played poker, played photo hunt and drank. It was the usual stuff, but maybe a little different. Cos there is no new people for me to meet le. When Tallie went out for breaks and I alone at our table, I feel that life in the KTV pub is so hallow. You do the same thing everytime you are there – laugh, eat, drink, talk, sing. When you wake up the following day, you can’t seems to remember what you have done there. But next day, next time, you will feel like going back again, just to spend your time.

Life is  spent so easily, so quickly — just like a lit cigarette while riding a bike on highway. The biker did not really enjoy the cigarette, but the cigarette just got depleted anyway, by the passing wind on the highway.

Oh and Tallie’s new friend, G, asked us if we are keen to go to ladies nightclub one of these days. I was so excited and curious, cos never been to one before, wonder what is it like. The only information I have is that it might be a bit ex.

Saturday

Celebration of mine and 2 other friends’ birthday with my ex-colleagues. We ate steamboat in one of the co’s house and played cards after that. The steamboat was so filling! Could feel my stomach bursting. After that, I was so sleepy, partly due to flu, partly due to food. After that I met Tallie for KTV, but the sleepiness carried forward and I fell asleep in the KTV room. In the end, only sang for 3 or 4 hours then went home to sleep.

Sunday

Resting at home. Initially, meant to go for my last pottery class. But was coughing badly after lunch, so I skipped the lesson and ask JY to help me collect whatever things if there is any.

Ate medicine, sleep, watch tv, read, sleep, watch drama, read, eat dinner, watch drama, sleep.

It was this period of time that I feel so restless and aimless. What is it I want to do? What is it in life for me? What do I want to achieve? Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. How I wish I could just sleep my life away and how I wish sleeping is my career.

空虚的时候，我喜欢睡觉。睡觉的时候，什么事情都不用想。睡一睡，又是一天了。这一个月，我特别感觉如此。可能这就是传说中的，”25岁后近生日忧郁症”? 不想去思考现实的问题，只想开开心心地过日子，可以吗?

很 sianz，昨晚睡得很不安稳。被吵架声吵醒，又半夜突然醒来，又被姐姐的闹钟吵醒。可恨的是，我醒了，我姐姐竟然还没醒!

平静了近一年，妈咪和姐姐又吵架了。总是为了同样的事情吵架，我都很累了，她们竟然还可以吵? 我真的不想管。总是各有各的道理，帮谁都不对。我只想有个安静一点，融洽一点的家，原来都很难? Haiz~~~~~

我发现我最喜欢待在家的时候，竟然是没有人的时候。那个时候才是属于我，安静的小天地。