Last Entry…

Hi Friends,

Last weekend, someone complained to my BFF that I “smeared” her reputation and backstabbed her in my blog. I totally went “WTH!!!” It was not cos I’m shocked that the “someone” read my blog; I was totally disgusted because there was nothing in my blog that “smeared” her reputation — What I said is the TRUTH and FACT! So what is the smearing about?! My entry din even talked ab0ut my opinion of her and no personal attack was targeted at her, I really dunno what is the big fuss about!

If that “someone” cannot take what I wrote, then dun read it lah! It’s not as if I gave her my blog add and I purposely ask her to read. It’s she who dunno got the link from where. But since she chose to read, then that’s too bad loh.

And hor, pls… This is what blogging is about. This is my blog, so I can write whatever I want – my most honest opinion, my deepest feelings, practically everything I want to say. If I want to say something shallow like “Oh, I met some wonderful people in the fairytale land and we all live happily everafter”, why should I even bother to write it in my blog? Who do I want to bluff? myself ah? Plsssssssssss….

Define “smearing” – Say a cow is a dog; or say a cauliflower is a broccoli; or say a stapler is a puncher.

If I say a cow is a cow, say a cauliflower is a cauliflower and say a stapler is a stapler, then it is not smearing of reputation. CLEAR-CUT! No doubt!

I think the most ridiculed thing is that she din say she come to noe abt it cos she read my blog loh. Supposed it’s so that she can continued to fish infor from it. So sneakish.

Which is why I decided to abandon this blog. I simply dunno why I have to share my blog with someone who is constantly on the lookout on what I said, so that she could use it to attack me and disturb my BFF.

FYI, my blog is for my FRIENDS to know how I am lately, for sharing of jokes and feelings. Not for some ridiculed women to use it as a weapon and fish infor. She thinks my blog is an ocean of fish ah?! Plsss…..

For people who know me, I seldom have such extreme feelings for someone. But when it comes in terms of privacy and using of it to disturb me and my friends, I totally cannot stand, even a pinch of it! So friends, I’ll update u all when my new blog is ready.

最近有点Blue

最近，状态不是很好。整天觉得很累，提不起精神作任何事。工作懒懒散散的；运动总是拖延；不想作任何新的活动；回家后就瘫在沙发，不想动。

听我的同事说，她得产后忧郁症时，也是这样的。难道我…..??

哈哈，应该不是的。只是，人生过了一些时候，会发现你要的东西不再一样了。或许更多，或许更少。它会催促你重新寻找你人生的重量。

人生很短，也很长。短的时候是，你没有时间去完成你的一千零一个愿望；长的时候是，你没有期待，没有愿望，没有目标，你只是在单纯地等待时间过去。

无欲无求是最崇高的，也是最可怕的。你不贪不偷不抢，因为你不知道有那么多钱，可以做什么。可是，没有欲望的你，也不知道活下去是为了什么。

人生的意义永远不简单。最近我一直在思考这个问题，思考着我要什么，思考着我的未来方向。

我想要做的事很多 — 我希望我的生活多姿多彩，我希望我可以充满自信，我希望可以走遍全世界。另一方面，我又希望可以安安静静，平凡地过我的日子。两种极端的生活，让我常常很不明白自己。

身体里有个惰性，阻止我前进。天啊! 真的很厌倦现状…

可能是因为我没有目标、没有动力吧? 连减肥，我都一拖再拖，不愿面对现实。

但有件事很想做 — 就是要多陪陪我的长辈们。时间过得真的很快，意味着她们正在快速地变老。虽然不愿去想，但我其实还有多少日子可以陪她们呢?

不想复杂，但惊觉人生真的简单不了。

不想烦恼，却只能感叹人生怎能无忧无愁。

It was a “something-is-missing” weekend (Part III)

Sunday – one day after my bday

My bday has gone passed and it was just like any other day.  Bday is getting more and more insignificant as you grew older. I started to dislike my bday, not cos I feel more and more pressured to get hitch, but I reli dun like the feeling that time rockets and I have done nothing. Practically nothing.

Morning, went to sing KTV with tata and Angel. Haha, finally get to hear the familiar Angel singing again. We sang and ate lunch, updated each other. Congrats to Tata! She was granted a secondment to US! Sooo happy for her. But sad for myself that I’m still stuck in Singapore. When can I fly out like a bird?! Like the rest of them?! Sianz.

Cos I was tired (slept only 3 hrs last night), I went home early to take a nap, but promised to meet angel again some time this week. Guess I’m really exhausted by the weekend partying, I fell asleep almost immediately.

I woke up and watched my 家好月圆大结局。But quite disappointed by it. I think everything happened too abruptly. Like the love between 阿卡 and 阿月, I dun even recall when did they develop? I was expecting some trigger point which transforms their relationship from siblings to couples. Maybe some 爱的表白 in some romantic setting. But nope, they just sat on the sofa and he gave her a teddy and TALA!~ they are together.

嘉美 also. She suddenly became guilt-stricken and decided to expose 红姨during the reporter’s conference? No hints or story development to show the audience her menal state of becoming more and more guilty. Nope. Too abrupt. Then, 阿圆, just went up the stage to hug her and forgive her as if they have been deeply in love for a long time. But actually, they only know each other for 3 months and I really can’t tell how deeply in love they are from the development of the story.

But I do like the story between 管家仔and阿秋。They are so sweet and 阿秋is so nice as to plot to return the shares to 荷妈。Even though it was a happy ending between 管家仔and阿秋, that both are 帅哥美女, so compatible, you can’t helped but wonder how realistic is it that the gal choose some 做饼仔 over a doctor? Ok, forget about that and enjoy the sweetness between them. Bosco is just a very extra side lead, we can forget about him.

Sa姨 is cute as well and you will really pity her when she exposed 嘉美 even though it means losing her only daughter. You hate her at the beginning and you’ll love her at the end.

But how come everyone is so forgiving to those who have hurt them and to those who have taken advantage of them? This is one mystery in the drama. 荷妈is like the great hero of the show, no matter how people hurt her, she can endure and forgive. No matter how devastated the situation is, she can just managed. Her children took after her. They endure no matter how much people wronged them. Like 阿月, who has to keep quiet about the wrongs that 嘉美 have done to her, even when people said that she is stupid or what; when the bad guys are even speaking of 风凉话。

阿庆and中仔 are obviously the 2 big side leads of the show, which is why their stories only constituted 1 or 2 episodes. But the one who have really shone is 阿秋。I like her in the show, cos when she cried, she really acted like it’s so painful. Yet, her crying style is not those “I-must-act-strong-even-though-I’m-crying”, it’s those “温室小花” crying style. So pitiful.

The ending is cliche. But I guess it’s just a heavily sponsored show to please the majority of the audience. That is why it is so cliche and no bad things or even any遗憾in the show.

During dinner time, Tallie called. She and D went down to ktv pub again. Haiz!~ This gal has been frequenting the pub so often that I wondered if she holds any shares in the pub. Anyway, really hope she can find other healthier hobbies and buck up in her work. Life is short and flew pass in a drifty.

Even though my weekends seems eventful, but I still feel that something is missing and I dunno what is missing. Somehow I feel that I will be happier watching HK drama in my house alone than spend it in the pub with a bunch of strangers. There is a part of me which is not filling up and I can do nothing about it.

I dun like complications, I prefer simplicity. So, I try not to think about such philosophical questions too much and too often. It can never go wrong with wishing my today happier than yesterday. Hope that everyone around me will be happy always!